Jul
20
2010
Hmm, perhaps I shouldn’t look that far..20 years to come is already a big Q altogether…
Today I landed once again at a place call home…and what moved my heart most was the sight of my 80-year-old neighbour uncle (who lost his wife sometime 10 years ago) walking towards his house from the playground all alone, dressed in his exercise attire; he just finished his daily morning ‘taichi’ with the elderly group.
Suddenly I found myself feeling pity for him, for being living alone since 10 years ago. I still remember aunty as a very cheerful bubbly person. Mom used to stand at the porch for hours talking to aunty about so many other things that many times, I got jealous-ed *shy
Uncle had to be very independent since then. He learned to cook (sometimes he’d cook for mom too), and just recently these 2 years he got himself a part time maid since he couldn’t do much house chores anymore and his daughter who is now living with him is very busy with her work.
Sometimes, when I am abroad, I feel for my parents. Dad is so busy with work, and mom is left alone at home at day. I wonder what would they do without each other; a fact that only time will decide, not anytime soon. I’d like to have the chance to shower them with my hard work $ or at least have them around to see their grandchildren (either mine or bro’s) before they bid us farewell. I constantly keep them in my prayers, praying for their safety and health; the only thing I couldn’t see from afar…
Someone asked me if I am even 20 (very recent case) T___T and when I said ‘YES’, he guessed my mom is around the age of 40+ plus. She put on a happy look for the rest of that day. Even dad looks quite young for his age, minus his balding shinny head…so yes, they are all happy and healthy and I’m gonna make them go for more trips in the future hehehe
Perhaps I am having a quarter life crisis now…or rather just too many things in my mind now that needs my attention. All of them jumbled up all together a particular time that sometimes, I don’t know what I was feeling the previous second. Numb. I guess I have to learn to prioritize, whichever that requires the urgency first to be dealt with but then again, too many external factors that somehow indirectly linked them all together. The process of separating them is a complicated process. Heart aches/frustrations/confusions are the few stumbling block. How lar. Why must life be so complicated?
Someone asked if I am greedy (not in materialistic terms). After much contemplation, I conclude that I am not but instead, very anxious and impatient. These are my stumbling blocks that grew into negative thoughts, and eventually I fell and got to learn to once stand up (loops process)
I am learning, and learning and learning. In all aspects that is. I know the ‘light bulb’ will appear soon =)
Jul
18
2010
Mom use to tell me that I have a ‘frowning lips’…
I couldn’t agree more…
But then, I found the secret to look ‘happy’, hmm, or cheeky?
err,at least I tried heh!?
Well, I think I did a good job, didn’t I? At least this smile is cute – minus the coconut-tree hair of course..
I think this picture was taken in my lower secondary…
Still with my chubby cheeks hehe *shy
And this just 2 weeks ago in Universal Studio…expression super fake I know, was ‘pretending’ to be afraid of the spinning cups T___T *fail max
The once coconut tree became fish-tail *KNS!
I just notice something;my hair length – all almost the same length (is this a coincident or a sign from God that this hair length is what I am destined to put on for the rest of my life?)…and my face didn’t change bits…maybe lost some baby fats but still, takde apa-apa perubahan mendadak. Same ugly betty *shy
On another note…this is NOT a TOOTHPASTE AD yeah! (I know my teeth is very white & nice hehehehehe)
Have a great week laughing, starting from my ‘laughing’ photos =)
Jul
15
2010
So…finale moment has arrived =)
The answer is…it’s …..
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FAKE!!!! ( the head drops off while attempting to take its pic… )
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Haha…just another possiblity….
Answer is in the video below=)
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YES, it’s REAL and the dog’s name is Cadbury! Awesome name kan?!!
If I were to have a dog I’d name it…Ferroro
Anyway, although not many voted, your responses have been very funny so far =)
AL even ‘rawr’ed at me leh hahahahaha.
Jul
13
2010
Hehehehe *gives evil grin*
Do you still think that it’s real/fake?
Vote now!
Jul
8
2010
Isn’t this doggy a sweetie!!!!!!!! Sooooo cuuutttte I want, I WwAaanNNnntT!!
SUPER CUTE TILL FAINT DOT COM !!!!!
When I showed this cutie to friends and family, their first reaction was
IS THIS REAL OR FAKE??
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I’d like to hear from you! Vote below! My, this is getting interesting =P !!
Jul
6
2010
I received this email today, whatever the sender’s motive was, I thought I’d share =)
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DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?
During one of my seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said,
‘How do I know if I married the right person?’
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said,
‘It depends. Is that your husband?’
In all seriousness, she answered
‘How do you know?’
Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it’s weighing on your mind.
Here’s the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse/partner. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).
Falling in love with your spouse wasn’t hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience. You didn’t have to DO anything. That’s why it’s called ‘falling‘ in love… Because it’s happening TO YOU.
People in love sometimes say, ‘I was swept off my feet.’ Think about the imagery of that expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.
Falling in love is easy. It’s a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It’s the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse’s idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.
The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.
At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, ‘Did I marry the right person?’ And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.
Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.
But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it. I’m not saying that you couldn’t fall in love with someone else. You could.
And TEMPORARILY you’d feel better. But you’d be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):
THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT’S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.
SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It’ll NEVER just happen to you. You can’t ‘find’ LASTING love. You have to ‘make’ it day in and day out. That’s why we have the expression ‘the labor of love.’
Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.
Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.
Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It’s a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable… you can ‘make’ love.
Love in marriage is indeed a ‘decision‘… Not just a feeling.
Remember this always:
‘God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.’
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Learn to love and appreciate the person you have found..how true… However, I personally believe that this applies to friendships too. Wish all couples/friends the best in their endeavors =)
Jul
5
2010
It was my first time traveling by bus from Ipoh to Singapore. Usually I’d fly, no, not because I am rich but because I plan my going home well, I usually get cheap air tickets! *grins*
Before I boarded the bus, I told my mom about the ‘weird’ feeling I had in me. She immediately prayed over it with me.
Never would I expect a second time experiencing a bus breakdown in my entire history of bus travel.
If I could point out the exact time the bus was having trouble, I’d be lying. Because I was sleeping like a pig *shy* and when the bus stopped (I thought the drivers needed some boost at the rest house), it was already 0110. I continued sleeping, only to realize that the bus stopped again…this time at 0130 with some heavy smell of burnt rubber. We were wondering what was happening; none of the drivers bothered to explain to us and upon seeing smoke that entered via the opened door, an uncle went to enquire what was happening, followed by his wife. The next thing I heard was his wife blurting the below;
‘If the tyre continues running, it’ll be burnt’
Now you tell me how can you not avoid feeling fearful. I immediately prayed for protection and also, erm, prepared to run should the bus catch fire, no I am not kidding…I was that prepared…
Somehow, the bus moved again…but at a very slow pace. Never could it reach JB, what more Singapore with that tortoise speed, but I kept mum. I admit another factor was my drowsiness that led me once again to dreamland…when it stopped, I realized that we were at some rest house, and the clock was showing 0230. This time a lady went upfront to enquire, and the bus driver told her he had contacted the main station and a replacement bus will be sent.
The replacement bus only arrived at 0430, and only by 0500, the bus started to move.
T__________________T
Nevermind. Upon reaching Larkin, those who were bound for Singapore were transfered to another bus, because that replacement bus didn’t have an ‘entry pass’. ^_____^
And after Singapore’s custom, they transferred the ones who wanted to stop at Woodlands to another bus.
T___________T
Thank God I chose to alight at Beach Road.
Imagine the confusion of jotting down each bus number at each transfer…
First was AFH XXXX
Then it was AEN XXXX
Last it was JHW XXXX
Eyes also become like this already lahhhh——>@.a
And mom’s heart got flatten for a moment….=(
And yes, as the title suggest, 12 hours ride on the bus. I can only thank God I arrived safely =)
Jul
3
2010
*phew*
The title itself is so looong.
So was the distance I ran. 21.15km
The roads were close early in the morning, thus we had to take the RapidKL bus which was specially routed to Dataran Merdeka.
The must-have photo
Magnificent view! Spurred me for a while *shy*
Hehe, upgraded from my previous 10km, 21.15 km didn’t seem that hard. I mean no, I didn’t suffer any pain (leg/pain), just a lil muscle ache/pulling (post-marathon effect), that was it. So happy that I completed it in 3 hours, could have completed earlier, but in the name of friendship, I told JT that it was ‘ok’ to walk to the finishing line. He had a sudden thigh cramp 700m before the finishing line. Poor him!
And WC sent me to cloud 9 when he praised me as a ‘natural runner’ *shy*
Honestly, I didn’t prepare enough for the marathon. I had several sh*tty situations that halted me from getting enough sleep what more spoilt my appetite. I was worried that I’d collapse halfway with the only ‘PowerBar’ supplied by the organizer, and refusing to eat the PowerGels that JT helped purchased T_T
Thank God, running a marathon has always been a Me-Time with Him. I gained insights on those sh*tty times that I am going through, back to running, every time I felt like giving up, He was there to encourage me. You may perceive it as a coincidence, but if can run 20km NON-STOP (during practice I only ran max 8km)….plus the super insufficient sleep and minimal diet, there must be a super power behind me don’t you think? Overall, it was a more difficult affair compared to Sg’s; in KL, we were made to run on more hilly roads.
The goodies we got upon completing our race
The satisfied smile. Macam taking passport photo, no? Oh, please excuse my fish-tail hair.
Notice the orange plastic thingy on my left shoe? It’s the bib.
So I thought I could sleep after my running affair. But I was wrong. Haha. Not even a nap after the marathon nor the night itself. And the next day, I conquered The Curve & IKEA and yet not able to fall asleep in the bus to LCCT nor in the plane. Whoa. And yes, finally I managed to collapse when I reached home. So heavenly! Maybe as I grow older, my body tend to develop a bed-recognition pattern…. T_T
Anyway, trust me these two are essential in any marathons;
1) SLEEP
2) DIET (Water & Food)
Seriously the best part is the liberty of THROWing your rubbish (cups/banana skins) on the road without guilt. Feels good you know! MUAHAHAHAHA
Many thanks to the organizers for more drinking stations and patience of entire team of traffic police (they had a horrible time from non-cooperative motorists). No more marathon for me, thank you. May consider volunteering instead though =) Will miss the feel-good-therapy-from-throwing-rubbish *laughs with both hands covering mouth*
* Photos taken with my hp camera, please excuse the quality
Jun
26
2010
Hey!! Am heading to Kuala Lumpur for the Standard Charterd marathon which takes place this Sunday! It is bad that I am still awake now. I hope it doesn’t kill my liver….anyway, wish me luck! And…meanwhile, it’ll be pretty silent here here too =)
Jun
25
2010
It is raining heavily now. Yes, as in at this point of me typing this entry (0715). The sounds of thunder are extremely loud. If I were sleeping, I would have been awaken by the sounds of them, but then again, it doesn’t matter. I didn’t sleep anyway , no, I mean I couldn’t (today is the hardest for me to fall asleep), but I did, for an hour, and then woke up to do what I planned to do – jog.
I cannot help but to think that it is as if even heaven is crying together with me right now.
No, this time isn’t insomnia. I was wide awake by 6am, only to realize that I gotta erase my puffiness, I mean I need to jog, and it’ll be embarrassing should I be caught looking like a blow-fish right? (ops)
I thought I could easily do 20 (rounds). But I couldn’t. It suddenly poured and I was forced to stop at the 10th. Actually, it was drizzling when I was in the training process but I thought nevermind…I needed to train…
When I was showering, the sound of thunders greeted me. Not to mention lightning that followed suit. Cooling as it may be, I doubt that falling asleep will be easy. Anyway, today’s heavy rain reminded me of a simple insight which I have conveniently forgotten.
Take my case as example, I wanted to jog. Why? Because I have a short-term goal to achieve – to complete my 21.1 km marathon this Sunday. But then, it rained halfway. I had to halt my run, and eventually head back to my room, knowing nothing I could do besides blogging to fill this allocated time for my jog. It is as if in life, when we want something/to do something so much, we may never get what we want; many times, external factors halts or changes the entire situation which we are not in control of.
So it rained. Please allow me to relate ‘rain’ to the negative aspects of our lives. The bitterness, the unhappiness, the disappointments etc. Yes, it will last awhile, but never will a lifetime. It has to stop at a point, even during Noah’s time, it did stop.
The best part that brings me comfort is, after every rain, there is sunshine. And it is the sunshine that keeps us all going,especially for me. And things will be ‘ok’…
Sunshine after the rain. It will come. What makes a man of integrity is how we react to the ‘rain’ of our lives. Some turn negative (start to hate everything that goes around them/lose their minds/become depressed/point fingers). Nevertheless, some learnt their lesson and stood up once again, learning yet never to repeat their mistakes.
One of my prayer agenda is to always glorify Him in all things that I do. I find it the hardest when ‘rain’ greets me.
I am glad that I can see how my that prayer is leading me to a person of integrity. I think I have to add on another agenda in my prayers already.
Which is never to lose my integrity that I have so difficultly built with my soul, heart and tears.